wish i could say..... a lil song

i've known since the beginning, i'm not a dancer, i'm not a guitar player, no, i'm a singer

it's so hard.seeing everything,
from my past,
so embarrasing!

i can remember,
the day i met you!
was the best day of my life.
now when i see that memory,
it tears my heart apart!

(chorus)

wish i could say, i wanted you!
wish i could say, you wanted me!
wish i could say, i loved you!
wish i could say, you love me!
but i can't.

you remember it, oh too well!
you laugh with your friends about the tears i shed.
i realize it was a big mistake!
and you'll pay for this!

you stupid little cheat!
did you think 'bout me?
course you didn't, and i won't bring it up again.

(chorus)

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that's all i've got so far. i'll make up the rest later. i bet ya'll are thinking why i wrote this. well, the truth is, i wrote it because this actually happened to me. i fell for a guy that asked me out and he broke my heart the next day. this happened when i was nine. he left me for my friend. he and i got ranked down to the friend zone, and, i haven't seen him since last year. and i hope i never will see him.

i shoulda known though. he liked me when he was with another girl that i knew. he was cheating, i shoulda known right then that he was a cheater. but i fell anyways. and i landed on my butt in the end.

well, now, at least i can say, i know better now. that's good. and actually, i wrote another song when he broke up with me. i'm not going to write it out for you, but, the chorus was this,

'i'm stronger now! stronger than i used to be! i'm stronger now. i'll break your heart before you break mine again, yeah that's how strong i've gotten.'

 silly, right? well, it has helped me get through a lot that's been going on lately that's flipped and changed good into bad.

p.s. did you like that pic up there? my mom's friend took that last year at the talent night for my church!